nanowrimo

Okay so next month is National Novel Writing Month! The challenge is to write a 50,000 word novel in one month. If you do write 50,000 words by the end of the month send it to this site and they will give you a little certificate http://www.nanowrimo.org/ . Really the point is not what people will give you but what you will give yourself. While the certificate maybe cool isn't it cooler that you have your own novel at the end?

Lost

Okay...I'm lost. Does anyone have the map? I lost my life map. I thought I put it under the passenger seat but then I realized my life car doesn't have one. I guess if it did I would have gladly given up the drivers seat for a few sound moments to myself. It is literally driving me nuts. Where is my life map! I am lost on the road to success and I think I have taken a detour down the lane of Lazy Do Nothing or maybe I am on the the Road to Self Destruction. There aren't any BP's to stop and get directions at and gosh darn it GPS companies don't make a system for life high ways. Can you tell me where I am? Have I made the right choices? Taken the right paths? Am I a good person? Or am I completely bad?

In Class

I am in class right now. The facts are these: 1. I do not like being told how to think and 2. I don't like being forced to do anything. While the class I am in at the time has nothing to do with any of this, I still feel the need to discuss it.

I like history. Most of the time it reads like a great story. What I don't like is being told how to decode history. Really it drives me nuts. Why can't I come to my own conclusion instead of swallowing someone elses? Oh well...little rant is over.

Humdrum Diddly Dee Life of Me

So today was my last day of freedom before school starts up. I decided to be a bad girl with my cousin and get some Ice Cream. I love Ice Cream sometime, especially sundaes. There are thousands of ways you can have a sundae and still have it be called a sundae. Any combo of toppings is glorious and fantastic so long as it is what you want and the shop has it...though I really do not think meat would go well with ice cream. But if you want it and the store has it go for it buddy. I usually like nuts and fruits and chocolate with butterscotch all mixed up in a delicious combonation.
Selections, choices, options, whatever you want to call it are truly the spice of life. Without such options what is the point of being human? Do you really want the same burger everyday? I don't. I may want pickles and onions one day, a plain one the next, one day I might want extra cheese, and for a month I might not want a burger at all. No offense to anyone who eats the same burger every day though...that is your choice because you are human.
I am not reading really anything at the moment...wish I was. I need a book to read. I finished reading the last of the twilight series. That was interesting. In general it was a good story and not a waste of my time. I smiled and laughed and so on so all in all good. I need a new book though. my need to finish shelf is now filled with finished books.

school...need more be said?

School starts soon. The number one question is...is the profession I chose the right profession for me? I sometimes think yes and other times think no and sometimes I just think becoming a truck driver sounds like an AWESOME idea. I mean I get paid to travel...something I love to do.

But to be frank, do they really expect me to pay a lot of money to become educated in one profession and then stay there for ever? In all honesty my favorite color changes constantly... if I were asked to choose my favorite color that was the color my world had to be forever I would not be happy! I like colors, I like options, I don't like being made to stay in one place all the time. There really is no job that suits me for too long. I highly doubt anyone will want to hire me. They will offer me 3 years contracts and I'll say "Can we make that maybe 1 year or 1/2 years please. Thank you." they will look at me like I am an idiot but it all honesty I hate being tied down! I loath it! I don't want to do it!

I find myself in a place where I do not know where I want to go. Left, right, up, down, center, north, south, east, west, or whatever other way someone can go mentally or physically. Really I constantly feel left and right of center at the same time all of the time....do you know how unnerving that is to not know where you are and where you want to be?

Once upon a time there was an appraiser who was living in southern Montana. He never really liked it there, but he never moved because business was booming. Everyone wanted to get things appraised due to the success of the tv show Antique RoadShow. One day a woman came walking in with a broach. She said it belonged to her great great grandmother. He smiled, stories like that were common with such items whether they were true or not were for him to decide. He looked that the broach and frowned, "Ma'am, I don't know what you are trying to pull here. That broach is no more than a few years old."

"Excuse me! This is my great great grandmothers! It was given to her as a gift from someone she loved. Apparently he died. We don't know his name. But sir I am no liar."

"Pardon me, but this broach was made by a company that was created three years ago. I bought one of these for an old girlfriend. Now they aren't cheap but they are common."

"But I have pictures sir! Dating back one hundered years."

"And I can find picture of bigfoot online. That doesn't mean Bigfoot is real."

"Sir just look."

He grimaced and put on his glasses. As soon as he saw the picture he almost dropped the paper. For two seconds he saw the eyes of his exgirlfriend starring back at him. He didn't care what she was wearing or where she was in the photo he just cared that it was her.


Don't know where i am going with this just felt inspired to write

I love the early AM

These hours use to be off limits to me, they were never allowed to be touched. For years I slept them away not knowing their glory. These are my alone hours. My me hours. My hours of doing as I please and knowing no sane person can see what I am up to. I grew rather fond of them as a teenager in a house filled with siblings. Even if this time was simply filled with me up in my room reading, I was alone and at peace.
I think that is why I hold onto these late hours, its the old me not letting go. I still feel like I can't let my hair down till after midnight. And when someone encroaches on my alone time I get upset. If someone stays around til after 1 at my house I become a not so very nice host...most of the time anyways.
Work was rather uneventful today. I got cussed out and was accused of stealing by a customer...really nothing altogether spectacular or worth mentioning. I do wish to say one thing though...do not cuss out someone who has control of your account...it is simply not a wise thing to do.

Doctor Who

I think I have a new addiction. It has come at the most inopportune time too. I don't have any money to feed it. I just discovered the tv series Doctor Who. It is completely amazing. I was simply flipping through the channels minding my own business not really searching for anything...about to go to bed when I landed on the scifi channel...and there it was. Doctor Who the most amazing show. I caught it midway through but it was still very good. I can't believe this flew under my radar for so long. I was looking to see if I could order one of the seasons online seeing as how my work doesn't carry it... I can't afford it. Still at least I know about it and can watch it for sort of free (I have to pay my cable bill) on tv.

Anyways, I have work tomorrow...fun...not really. I wish I could find a more fufilling job.

I can't really think of anything more interesting to say. Well I guess I could talk about my Batman. I got a Batman action figure a year or so ago. I really didn't know what to do with him...I am not the kind of person who leaves things in boxes...they aren't any fun that way. So I took him out and placed him on my kitchen ceiling fan. He has been there ever since...protecting my kitchen from bad food I guess but he hasn't been doing a very good job. Still he is a great topic of conversation when people do come over. I can always catch people looking at him with a confused face. I never say anything about him though unless they ask.

Well I guess that is all.

book shelf

I take great pride in my books. They are my babies. Even if by some chance I own a book that I don't like I still have a hard time letting it go.
Some days books are my saving grace. I can escape to them whenever i feel depressed or sad or the world is upside down my books are there. I can run to a familiar place and hide in their pages. This is not a solution to my problems mind you, just an escape for a few minutes or hours. However long it takes for me to become me again.
I always love spreading my love for books, but I hate giving my own books out...I missing a lot of them and I do not know who I gave them out to.
I use to hate reading. I had a hard time with it. If there is anything I know about myself it is that if I think something is difficult I don't want to do it. It wasn't until I was in Junior High that I started reading the books I had to for school.
Slowly I started branching out and finding books I liked. Now I have a whole floor to ceiling bookshelf full...and it doesn't even hold all of my books. People who see it always ask if I have read them all. I always have to sadly say no and point to the top shelf...the books I am working on finishing. That is where they should be anyways. Also my all time can't live without books are usually on the second or third shelf. But the books I am working on finishing along with my favorites usually end up in a pile by my bed...(Not a stack...truly a pile...they fall there when I fall asleep and they usually don't get put back on the shelf until I get the rare urge to clean everything).
Some people my be upset to hear this but I do dog ear corners. Not in library books, never in library books that always drives me up a wall. Not because it is simply a dog eared corner. It bothers me because I want to know why someone did it. Chances are they did it to mark where they stopped reading. But it could also be because they liked a certain phrase or passage, or because they book fell and they straightened every page but that one, or because they didn't understand one part of it, or because some one held them at gun point and made them do it. All of these are possible.

But I do dog ear the corners of my own books, to mark my favorite parts. This is so that I can easily find them if I want a quick pick me up. After a while though the book gets so beat up that it simply falls open to most of my favorite parts so they don't need to be dog eared any more. But I leave the page turned over, out of habit.

15 minutes of me simply typing

I am just going to type for fifteen minutes and see where that takes me. I am not going to allow my fingers to stop moving for fifteen minutes. Unless I have an itch or something then I will scratch it and start typing again. So I just got back from work...fun. I work at a movie rental place. FUN...Not! A well trained NASA monkey could do my job. Notice I say NASA monkey because 1. I would like to keep some of my dignity. 2. apparently some people aren't smarter than them....proof people who work at my store. This is my job in a nut shell. Check in movies, check out movies, take people's cash and give correct change, hit a button so people can use credit cards, put away movies. FIN, done that is it...unless people choose to make my life more difficult. Like let's say people who give 100 dollar bills for something that is 5 dollars. Our drawers mostly are only suppose to have about 150 dollars in them on average. That is 150 dollars all together that includes change. We usually only have 5s and 1s in dollar bills unless someone gives us 20s. So if you give me a 100 dollar bill I am basically stuck giving you 95 dollars back is 5s and singles. Then I have to wait ten minutes for the safe to go off before I can get more money for my drawer. REALLY PEOPLE!! CARRY SMALLER BILLS OR BUY MORE STUFF! I am not kidding. Why do you carry 100 dollar bills anyway? If you are going grocery shopping that works wonderfully because hey on average people spend that much on groceries but seriously....other than that...why?

Also another thing...why do people feel the need to use rented movies like frisbees? REALLY WHY? I WANT TO know! I get movies back sometimes that look like someone pressed them up against a brick wall and then twisted them. Or they have rings on them like they were used as a coaster....seriously guys come on. Just because you paid for it for a week does not mean you can do as you please with it.

Another thing... PS3, XBOX360, and WII games cost a LOT of money. It is a privilege to rent them...not a right. If you cannot provide us with a way of charging you for damaging/not returning them you don't get to rent them...sorry...not really...

Also don't yell at me because of the way the store is run. I have no control over store policy. While sometimes I would like to throw many of the rules out the window...I can't for two reasons. 1. we don't have windows that open and 2. I would get fired. If you can't return a movie within its given due date you get charged...period. If you don't like it don't complain to me or my manager. Call corporate and complain to their voicemail, leave your number, and they will never call you back. If you can't find/forgot to bring your membership card/State ID I cannot rent to you. That is for your protection. If we were allowed to do that someone could say they are you, rent on your account and you would be held accountable for anything that happens to those movies. Also the store is not my life...I do other things other than work. I don't have time to watch EVERY MOVIE...nor would I want to watch every movie. So do not get mad at me if I did not watch Meet the Spartans because I actually have a brain. Also don't yell at me if a movie was terrible we guarantee that the quality of the dvd not the movie that is on it.

So ends my little rant. I do have a few parting words. Be nice to the person who checks out your movies. If you are good things may happen, one of your movies may just happen to be free. If you are mean you may find that the movie you want is all checked out or worse.

Blogging

I have an EXTREMELY short attention span... so short I am not too sure how long I will keep this blog. But in all actuality I think I am making this in orderer to decompress. I always find that writing things and sharing them is extremely relaxing. But sometimes it is hard to share some thoughts with friends and family so why not trust them to complete strangers?