Me in one word

I sit and I ponder my life in a nut shell. If one word were written to describe me what would it be? Adventurous? No, I am not so bold. Skeptic? No I am not that questioning. Realist? I hardly live in the real world. Humorist? I am not very good at telling jokes. Crazy? Maybe on good days. Lazy? Sadly on most days. Stupid? I wish. Smart? Not so much. Average? Too boring. Original? I can only hope. Tired? Right now yes I am tired. I think I will go to bed and ponder this question further.